For those of you reading this who don't know, this half-ironman was a 1.9km swim, 90km bike, and 20km run all packaged into one lengthy race that leaves your legs wondering why they have to take orders from such a exercise-crazed mine and can't just hop off and do something simple, such as play ball with a dog.
The reality of what I was about to do never really sunk in. It honestly, to me, did not seem like an insurmountable task. It was just a race I had entered for fun and I was excited to try something longer. Part of that may have stemmed from the fact I have already done some stupidly long things, such as 7km swims, biking from Jasper to Banff on a barely functioning mountain bike, and running 47km through a mountain range during a blizzard without food. A half-ironman, by comparison, seemed difficult - but it surely couldn't be the hardest thing I've done*.
*Little did I know at this point how wrong that thought was.
The days before the race slipped away until suddenly it was 4:05am on Sunday July 13th and my alarm was obnoxiously blaring in my ear like a terrible DJ. I was excited. I was nervous. But mostly, I wanted to tell that alarm to shove it and let me sleep just a little bit longer.
Transition opened at 5:15am and our race was to start at 6:30am. Fortunately, I am a morning person and we were at race site at 5:30am, rather than being left more confused by the fact I was up before sunrise during summer than visitors are after reading beach signs.
I set up transition, slathered on five pounds of sunscreen, pulled on my wetsuit, and marched off to the beach ready to start the fun.
Fun fact about myself. I don't like water. I'm actually moderately aqua-phobic and have a tendency to panic if I cannot see the bottom of where I am swimming or if where I am swimming is a large body of water. This may seem like a problem as a triathlete, but I also have this thing where I like to face my fears - because being paralyzed by fear is a stupid waste of time in my mind. I hate small spaces - so I go in caves, heights scare me - so I go cliff jumping and rock climbing, open water terrifies me - so I become a triathlete and swim every day. The thing is, in any triathlon with an open water swim - my mind is still thinking things like this:
or this:
or even this:
So the fact I was about to do a 1.9km swim in the ocean, actually freaked me out.
Fortunately, the excitement of a race leaves very little mind-power to process that fact once the start blast sounds. Warm-up swims in an ocean? Terrifying. Race in an ocean? I'm too focused on the task at hand to really comprehend the fact I am in an ocean, or what gender I am, wait - what's my name again?
The start of the race was similar to any other triathlon I have done. Lot's of splashing, punching, kicking, and sprinting. It settled down a lot faster than I am used to though, I found myself swimming in clear water in a pack well before I am used to during an Olympic distance event.
The swim went well. Aside from the fact it was 400m longer than I usually swim and was consequently a slightly slower pace, it did not really sink in to my head that I was doing a half-ironman yet. I swam my two laps smoothly, albeit a bit slowly, and then charged out of the water to head to T1.
Usually my goal for transitions is to be quick and stealthy, like a ninja. The reality of my transitions is I am often slightly disoriented and clumsy, like a really bad ninja that keeps lighting himself on fire.
This time, I decided to do my transitions a bit slower and focused to take the time to quickly hydrate before leaving transition. I also forgot to lube my wetsuit so taking it off was about as graceful as an obese giraffe attempting ballet.
Mishaps aside, I took off out of T1 and mounted my bike; my trusty stead, Vicky. Vicky and I have been through a lot in our 2 short years together. About 6 crashes, thousands of kilometers traveled, and race venues in 3 different countries. Still, she is more designed for road racing and pack riding than a time trial setting but with aero bars mounted, she got the job done.
I sometimes find some race courses to be as clear as traffic signs.
This course, however, was splendidly well marked and made the bike route very clear. It was 4 big loops to bring the course to 90km, which is a long time to ride and leads to some very unusual thoughts.
Whilst hammering up a hill, I found my mind singing 'The Colours of the Wind' from Pocahontas, for example.
By about the 75km mark, I finally realized what it was I was actually doing. It suddenly dawned on me that I was in a half-Ironman, and a half-Ironman is long. I wasn't dying yet. If I was anything, it was a bit bored. I have a very strange mind, and after about the three thousandth rendition of Pocahontas singing in my head, I found myself on the final stretch leading back to T2.
T2 went as planned, I had paced myself well as I definitely felt like I had the energy for the 20km run that still loomed, and I wasn't hungry - which was a good indication I had eaten the right amount of food on the bike*.
*Hammer Bars, you are a thing of glory.
I headed out of transition and onto the run.
I felt fine...for about 2km. Then the heat really started taking a toll on me. By this time, it was 32 degrees Celsius, 70% humidity, trails in the blazing sun, and no wind anywhere. I work full-time, the majority of my training volume is done early or late in the day. Heat is no longer something I am accustomed too. I started fading quicker than profit from a poorly signed business.
The next 18km were the hardest thing I have ever done in my life. I could not get enough water and Gatorade into myself at aide stations. I was so hot. I occasionally had to stop and walk. The end of that half-ironman was the biggest mental battle I have ever had to fight with myself. I felt like death, and I looked like something that tasted foul and hell spat back out.
By the end of the run, I had all but forgotten I had even swam and biked that day. All I wanted was shade and water. I kept myself going by fantasizing about diving into a bucket of ice until finally the finish line appeared.
I would like to say I sprinted across. I would like to say I fought with every last fiber of my being to pass someone else in the chute. I would like to say I was the epitome of endurance and power as I crossed that line. But I cannot, for I barely hobbled across that line - drenched in sweat and salt, confused and dizzy from the heat, and with a time that is not exactly stellar.
None of it mattered, though. I had finished. My face didn't show it - but I was so happy and proud of myself. Doing that half, after the winter and health issues I have had, was the hardest thing I have ever put myself through. I proved to myself what I am made of. What I was too afraid to even do before is now a challenge I rise to. I fell in love with triathlon again during that race, but best of all - I fell in love with myself and everything I am capable of. No, I didn't charge to a new great record or a spot on the podium - but it didn't matter. I had done something I had previously thought was impossible, and it blew away the negativity and criticisms that have always been in the back of my mind limiting me. I am capable of a lot more than I have given myself credit for. I am so glad for the push from my coach to enter this race so I could realize that fact. What has been stopping me from going further has been me, and during those final 18km when I could have given up - I had to shut that voice up once and for all to finish.
Consequently, of all the race pictures ever taken of me, that finishing line photo is now my favorite. I think I will develop and frame it to remind myself when I am down of what I can do when I put my mind to something.
The rest of the trip was quite quick albeit restful. We stopped at Silver Lake, which was beautiful.
We ate enough food to cause weight gain in any normal mammal.
Then we drove home through stiffness, fatigue, and a ton of forest fire smoke before arriving back in Edmonton and collapsing into our beds.
It was an incredibly memorable trip to Vancouver. Oh, and I also qualified for 2015 Long Distance Triathlon Worlds in Sweden!
PS - be careful how you mourn dead corn.
Until next time,
Bry-Bry